Anxiety: Fear of thought changing physical or physical changing thought. The stoppage of love, making god afraid. Silence interfacing in time makes time afraid because time changes. The devil avoids eye contact and that is why we don't look at each other---causing fear. Weigh of our thoughts by waiting to think causes anxiety. Also placing memories into same memories with thought. My anxiety is in my subconscious--toilet waste is being flushed into the subconscious to the bottomless pit. The devil in the body is trying to see (C) the feelings of IT (the spirit) through the eyes and IT dodges the devil, causing anxiety for the devil which I feel with her. Also the memory of a memory (Ceeing) may be causing anxiety. God? killed Christ to kill our sexuality for their "love." Christ was killed by the Illuminati so god was not doing wrong on his own will. Due to pain, Jesus turned black on the cross because he ignited with fire. Negroes are an extension of Christ.
Validation of paranoia:
1) They don't want to change for me but they want me to change for them to understand, not wanting me to make decisions at my own time. I have to move out their way when we approach each other and they don't move out my way. This is so the spirit doesn't change the material world my way.
1b) When they communicate, the memory of IT (the spirit) becomes confused so it cannot make association to the physical world with those memories and is lost since it cannot make decisions about them. This is because the truth is used against us. We are forced to tell the truth in court and the truth masks feelings. The murders are caused by the truth.
There is a test of memory for love by acting physically or mentally with motion of thought (looking in a different direction). We are not able to remember how to turn the memory back. The devil is afraid to turn the BLACK back when I turn back. Love is an immoral pleasure by God? the Devil and, Lucifer. People should tell me what love really is so law enforcement can work properly.
2a) The paradox is, will you conform to yourself or will you conform to others and how well is the medication keeping you under control to make decisions for yourself? Another consideration is do you trust your psychiatrist or the mental health system.
2b) They are using our numberless beliefs not associated with objects to function against us. That's why we're insane-we don't know the numbers. Love of numbers is a test function that creates distrust that they control with. They acquire random numbers from schizophrenics and apply them to physical forms to conspire with beliefs. Random numbers correlate with schizophrenia and schizophrenics.
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