Looking and seeing reality and feeling what you see is causing anxiety due to trust and transformation of matter with that trust. The intelligence reversed my feelings (an anti-time state) and this is why I may be getting anxiety attacks and it is difficult for me to learn new things and restricting my communication with others withholding my words. Since the intelligence is responsible, when we fear others it is intelligence in us that is really feeling fear. They use our mental reservation to enable the power they use to think and act with force. The native Americans are reserved, their land being called reservations.
With the correct associations of logical or illogical thoughts, we would be able to have evidence of the unknown since decisions about meaning would be made with observation of your environment as you trust your instinct or not . God is causing a compulsion to be illogical because matter does not change with his thought of indecision. God may not be under his own control, causing harm. There is a test of time with wonder that would produce intelligence due to worries. What I have been doing with my illness is to create sense out of the undefined meaning of reality with mental query-with the stress that there is more to life than I see that "truth," created by intelligence, which may be composed by God, the Devil and Lucifer.
Krishna was transformed to a Negro on the cross because the Jews caused this and took his light as the illumination of darkness. Negroes represent the descendants of Christ but struggle with mental deficiency because God cannot function properly due to the transformation on the cross caused by the crucifixion.
